For years, I battled back issues stemming from falling off a horse in full gallop, as a child landing on my tail bone, or skiing down a mountain as a teenager falling. I battled a protruding disc. I suffered a mild stroke at the age of 16 from anxiety.
I was young when I got diagnosed with anxiety, Rheumatoid Arthritis. Then Osteo Arthritis, Degenerative Disc Disease and Fibromyalgia and those battling Fibromyalgia
know this is how it really feels under your skin. Nerve disorder.
7 years ago changed my life. I worked at a school. I fell on ice. At first my body was in complete shock. Then reality set in. I became in unbearable pain, I was confined to my bed by myself, turning myself every few minutes all day & night. I stressed and cried in pain as I had to sit up and had to walk. I could only be on my feet for less than 5 minutes before my body went into complete pain and shut down. I shuffled to walk and held onto everything. Outbursts of screams in agony could be heard from the bathroom.
Through the tears and pain. I lay for hours staring up at the ceiling. Then I began to find me again. I would do self-healing and body talk to relax my body & mind to move. Each day I would gain more minutes and energy. I took my life challenges an trauma and released them in a healthy positive way. The first time I hit an hr. I was super excited and more determined.
Then, while confined to my bed, I made goals for myself. Each goal I achieved made me stronger. The fact that I would get up to sit up at the kitchen table and have coffee to watch my boy leave for school to hear him say 'I love you" and give me a hug helped. To when he would get home after school. My son and I would walk . He could be heard saying "Come on Speedy". He was my safety and my focus. I also had a dog who was hurt in a tractor accident. She lost her leg around the same time. So her and I bonded more and would walk together. Each day became a daily play and walking session with my dog. I started to notice more of my surroundings of nature outside. I took in all that is beautiful area around me. Started to pray again and give thanks.
It did not matter that the doctors told me that MRI showed from 2009 to 2019 my discs in my neck C3-4 and lower back lumbar 4-5 were deteriorating too fast. The amount of pills I had to take was finally rejected. I was not able to have the same effect with other meds. The fact is a back specialist in Brandon ripped up my paper and said she needed a new spine. No surgery! I thought of the positive thing it's a body sentence not a death sentence.
This did not stop me. I needed to lose all this weight I had put on by being bedridden and putting pills in my body into a tail spin. I had to find myself again. I have found that person again. I always knew was apart of me. The one who overcame obstacles just to prove I can defeat the odds stacked against me. That stubborn woman that defied the outcome she faced. I wanted to dance at my son's graduation. This was my focus to keep fighting and lose weight. On this day cry in happiness, not in pain.
Today I can be up more than 3 hrs before I need to sit or lay down. I learned how to manage pain with Reiki. I relearned how to listen to my body and lose a lot of weight. I have more goals to accomplish in life. I want to travel to my favourite places.
I am very thankful my body settled to confine me those years ago because my mind had to relearn its value of life. I am living life again, My journey brought me to finding my spiritual & religious roots again. It awoke that part of me that laid dormant. I awakened just in time.
All you that personally know me that I just want to dance and adventure in fun again.
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